Olivia is sick. Probably the worst cold/flu thing she has ever had in her short two years. We knew something was coming - she only gets clingy when she isn't feeling well and she was a monkey starting last Thursday. Whatever it is she has took hold Sunday - of course, while we were gone.
Enter the guilt.
I felt bad leaving Saturday because I was afraid that she was coming down with some kind of ick. But off I went. To have fun. Eat yummy food. Enjoy room service. All while my baby was sick. I felt like a schmo for leaving her.
But, then Monday came and I had an opportunity to feel even worse.
I had an interview scheduled for 9 am that day. GD was going to come over and snag Olivia so that I could get off on time and just keep her over at her house until I got home. She woke up feeling super crummy, and it quickly went downhill from there. She got sick. All over the kitchen floor. In the midst of Jason trying to get Emma out the door to school remotely close to on time. I started reconsidering my interview. Here is my wee one, crying, icky and just miserable. And here I am. Getting ready to leave her. You would have thought GD was stealing her when she tried to take her from my arms. Olivia didn't want to let go. Mommy guilt kicked into over drive. GD kept insisting she would be fine. Go. Don't worry.
As she walked down the driveway with her, and it now being fifteen minutes past when I wanted to leave, I felt like an ass.
Of course, Olivia was fine. She settled down and attached to GD while I was gone. GD called me on the way to my interview to let me know she was ok. And even though I knew she would be ok while I was gone, I still felt horrible. How could I not?
It's only Wednesday. It feels like it should be the weekend by now. I can feel some kind of ick trying to get a hold of me now. Sure can't wait to feel super crummy. Of course, it couldn't be at the same time as Olivia - we could be good sick buddies. No. My ick will rear its head when she is better, putting me at a serious disadvantage.
Let the fun begin.
